3 weeks postpartum

Wow I can't believe it's been 3 weeks already. Yes, it's not that long but it is with a baby. 

Squirt is doing good. Though he likes to wake up around 3am and stay awake for 3 or so hours. And he doesn't seem to want to stop eating ever. 

Speaking of eating, I'm done breastfeeding. I kind of don't want to stop, but I do. I'm just tired of having to hide in a bedroom most of the day while I feed him. Not to mention it's an extremely messy bedroom with little room to move around because of 3 of us living in 1 room. Plus the constant eating. I feel like I feed him for an hour or more at a time and he's still hungry. And it still hurts some even though his latch is fine and he doesn't eat without a nipple shield (which is probably what's causing the pain since it feels like I've been rubbed raw). 

I'm just done feeling like I can't even fit in a shower. I guess things would be easier if we lived in our own place, but we don't. Add in that I'll be starting to wean in about 2-3 weeks anyway. I don't think I'll be able to go to training and come home then try to build my supply again. I don't think I'll have time to pump while I'm there so I'd have to temporarily wean, Squirt would need to be supplemented while I'm gone, and I'd have to build my supply up again when I got home.

I feel like I'm just constantly full of excuses but I can't deal with the stress anymore. I'm just happy I made it this long. 

Now I just have to figure out how to wean him. Maybe drop a feeding a day for a couple days and then drop another one. 

Anyway, postpartum. I'm seeing my stomach going down a little, but not much. Breastfeeding isn't doing anything drastic in the weight loss area from when I was formula feeding Little E. I actually pulled out the pants I bought for after Little E (I bought size 12 to start, then each size down after that till I fit my prepregnancy jeans again) and I'm just fitting in the size 12. So it's really not doing much. 

I did jog once so far this week. It was more like a shuffle and I walked when I wanted to for half a mile. But I felt great so I may do it again. I can't believe how bad of shape I'm in, but I have to start somewhere again. 

Weight tracker

Lost: 176.4lbs

Total: 19.6lbs

To go: 26.6lbs

No pictures this week, sorry. 

Jalee