1 month update and postpartum

Squirt's past week of life has been highly challenging. He's been on what I like to call a "feeding frenzy." Basically he's been eating what feels like nonstop lately and it's been difficult. A lot of days I sometimes wonder why we had a second (I still love him and don't wish otherwise, just missing sleep). Height and weight I don't have since the pediatrician here only does a 2 week and 2 month appointment so I can't update on those other than saying he's gotten big. He is officially in size 1 diapers and 0-3 month clothes now. It makes me a little sad in that crazy mother way, but I'm glad he's growing. And he's more alert lately. He's started staying up more and looking around at things. Granted he still sleeps a lot, but he's becoming more focused. 

One month postpartum. I've begun working out. Running and arm exercises  it feels great too. Postpartum bleeding is pretty much gone. I sometimes get some spotting but barely. It's better than after Little E where I bled for 6 weeks straight. 

I am still breastfeeding, I think I was just worn out from no sleep and having to sit alone so much that I had a breakdown. And, honestly, I feel as if everyone forgets I just had a baby and will be emotional or I'm just too tired/hurt to want to cook (or do anything else for that matter). Add in the stress of now having to find a job and I have a tendency to lose it sometimes but have to try to act normal it feels like.

Which is why I feel I'm missing where we used to live with the military. The weather was horrible most of the time but we were financially stable so we could do things, we had no one around to help but I dealt with that because I had my independence, and most of all we had our own place to live with enough room to do it. I'm just missing that part of our life lately. 

My stomach still looks rounded, which is a bummer. I did start wearing shapewear this past week. I just got a cheap $15 brand from walmart so when I need a size smaller I won't spend more than $30 total. I did get a generic postpartum binder but it bunches up in the back and isn't very comfortable so I just wanted something different. That should help my muscle separation some (even though it's maybe 1 finger width now). 

If you look at my postpartum pictures I'm definitely improving. 

17 hrs PP vs. 4 weeks PP

Weight loss

Current: 172.4

Total lost: 23.6

To go: 22.4

I finally lost more than I need to go. 

Jalee