Today the family has lost a wonderful lady. It was a blessing in that she didn't suffer very long from the cancer, but not so much as she was just diagnosed last week. It was sudden and a surprise to everyone.
On another note Big E and I were talking while driving around looking for nursing bras for me. His brother has been kind of favored and spoiled and you can tell. Big E said something to me today I thought but never said as I figured it wasn't my place. Hearing it come from him really hit how much he gets hurt from all that and it kind of upset me. In the end it won't change, I just wish he sometimes got shown that appreciation.
The last couple days we've been gathering a couple things left we need to get for Squirt. I got a small crockpot to warm bottles in (much cheaper than a bottle warmer), found a rock n play sleeper on clearance for $37 (which is nice as I don't think the pack n play will fit next to our bed), bought a couple swaddlers at a thrift store, got a couple muslin blankets, receiving blankets, bibs on clearance, socks on clearance, and found some clothes on clearance. I also picked up a couple coming home outfits.
All I have left to purchase is a breastpump (our insurance doesn't cover one and I have a course to go to for the military 7 weeks after having Squirt). I'm waiting on that for the tax refund and because I want to be able to return it in case breastfeeding doesn't work out.
I think we're finally done shopping for Squirt besides that. Now just waiting for him.
And hopefully Big E is able to get a job and we can get a home. I'd love to bring my children to their own place. But so far no luck. I have a feeling he's going to end up working minimum wage and we'll never get anywhere. I just wish life wasn't so hard sometimes.
Jalee
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