I've been lucky in life

I have to tell myself that from time to time as I have a place to live with my family (though it's not our own), we're fed, and we're healthy.

When Big E left the Army to pursue a career somewhere else in the civilian world and to move closer to family we had high hopes that everything would turn out fine and we would get all we wanted. Months later and he still hadn't had a job offer, besides going for the Game and Fish Commission. He was doing well there and a family friend that works for them had told us he was slotted for a spot.

Imagine our disappointment when he got a rejection notice (which the friend thinks someone higher up wanted their friend there and it kicked Big E out of his spot). I cried about it for a few days. Which, now that I look at it it wasn't that serious, but after getting our hopes up for this job we were dropped on our butts. Plus, I just had Squirt the week prior so I'm sure some hormones were in play.

Part of me was sad that Big E didn't get to do the job he had dreamed of doing since he was little. The selfish side of me knew this meant Big E was going to go to school and possibly take a lesser paying job. Which he finally found that lesser paying job that he started last week, and he may be going down to part-time once school starts. Knowing that upset me as I was looking forward to spending at least the first year at home with Squirt, but now I knew I would have to find a job, it added a lot of stress to me as I wasn't looking forward to dealing with that plus getting back into shape.

I had lucked out, once Little E was 6 months old I was able to be a stay at home mom to him and we had been through a lot together. I guess I was looking forward to being there for Squirt too and learning his personality. Besides, these past few weeks are making me wonder how I was working from 7 weeks to 6 months with Little E. Squirt's been very fussy until about 1-2am every single night so I've been exhausted.

But every good thing must end I suppose. So back to work I will go (if I ever get offered anything). It's been a rough market for veterans here (Big E only has his current job because his dad's friend knows the boss), even applying for a job with the VA to work in the cemetery it states that preference will go to current workers with the VA and then veterans that aren't employed currently with the VA. Yes, because God forbid the VA should actually hire veterans.

So, besides that we have had great luck.... Hopefully. We've been able to put in an offer on a home and it was accepted. It's a small home, but it'll fit our needs, and it'll be ours. I'm just praying nothing happens with the loan, especially since Big E just started at that job and all I have for income is my drill pay right now.

Our soon to be new home

If all goes well we'll be moving in the middle of July. I'm just holding my breath until then, and hoping I'm able to get a job by then so that we can have a little more money to do our long to-do list on the home or be able to have extra spending money for the family.

I just hope we're not getting in over our heads with this home.

That just shows me that the Game and Fish job wasn't meant to be. We would have been a couple hours from family and had to find a home to buy as well as having a newborn without any help. Plus, the home we're buying is a wonderful home and I'm excited to move into it.